Tuesday, 27 March 2012

:: My nose, photo shoot and smoking ::

In a bit of a crap mood if I'm honest guys!
I've been trying to quit smoking for about a month now and I keep fucking up so I've decided it's time to seek professional help.

I've been on and off smoking for about 5-6 years and I hate it!!!!
You might ask why I actually started in the first place? Well, like a lot of people I know, I was a social smoker at first........ I can't actually remember the first cigarette that I had but I was partying, as you can imagine I was pretty dam hammered and like a total idiot would have been offered one and took it.
It amazes me how quickly I became a full time smoker and at the time I couldn't have cared about the effect it has on your health nor your teeth etc if I'm completely honest.

So, what has given me the kick up the arse to get it sorted? My nose.
Ok so your probably thinking WTF but let me explain.......... I've always had problems breathing ever since I can remember, I went to the doctors when I was quite a bit younger(this was waaaaaaaaay before I started smoking btw) only to be told I had allergies.
Ever had that gut feeling that you know what's wrong? I did but didn't question my doctor, heck I was only like 13 at the time, you trust your doctor!

It's been nearly 12 years since that appointment and if anything my breathing has got worse, no doubt smoking has contributed to this but I had the same gut feeling as I did all those years ago.....the shape was the problem!
Surely it wasn't a coincidence that both my mum and my gran(who I've inherited my misshapen hooter from) had/have the same problem as me? I think not!!!!
Although I've hated the shape of my nose for what feels like forever, I've always laughed it off and poked fun at it before anyone else could!
I always remember my first day of high school, one of the guys asked me how I'd broken my nose. Awkward.
I did feel bad for him when I had to explain that that was just my nose!!!!! O_o

Anyway, getting back to the doctors..............
I knew I had to be strong and put forward the idea that it COULD be the shape that was the problem. Guess who was right the whole bloody time! Yup, I've got a deviated septum!
For those of you that aren't familiar with the term, basically it's when your nose is crooked thus obstructing your breathing. Only way to sort it? Nose job!
Now I've never actually had any kind of surgery before but my doctor has a condition before she'll recomend me to a specialist. Stop smoking.
You know what, fair play! Why should they fix my nose when they can't be 100% sure that it isn't the smoking that's causing it? I know I've had it all my life but the amount of people that lie to get cosmetic surgery on the NHS is crazy, how do they know I'm not lying?
I'm determined to prove that it isn't the smoking so I'll go along with it. Who knows? They might give me the nose I've dreamt of! ;)

In other news I'm having a mission of a time trying to pick my ONE picture for Destination Fame, I've managed to get it down to the two below. Please bare in mind these pictures have not gone to editing yet!!!



Is soooooooooooooooooo difficult!!!  (>_<)
I love both images but how to you choose?
I'm kinda swaying towards the first but I'm not sure if the judges will approve of her tattoo?
The weird thing is I think the tattoo adds a little edge to the picture, what do you guys think?

             X Bokusouchi X


  1. Replies
    1. Thanks! Have been swaying towards that one :)

  2. Yup, definately the first one. About the smoking, I have also tried to stop doing it and it's pretty tough but I am keeping my faith. Hope I can quit once and for all.

    1. Thanks Jeimy! I'm defo going to go with the first! ;)
      I feel your pain, I'm so sick of smoking and it annoys me that I can't seem to kick it but upwards and onwards! Good luck with kicking it honey <3